The crowded loneliness

I stand in a crowd and yet a sense of loneliness engulfs me! I see familiar faces and yet there is a sense of unfamiliarity!
It isn’t a friendly world that I see any longer! It has changed utterly and disastrously!
I don’t see any of the faces from the past! I don’t see the faces that trusted me and loved me!
It seems as though I am surrounded by a million smiling faces but the faces are blurred! They are close to me yet so far from the real me!
I was convinced for some time that it was one big bad dream!
I see the bad and the ugly and its many facets rising like the tsunami and engulfing into its lap the very young and the very old alike!
I see faces spewing venom all around me!
I see corruption!
I see threat, I see malice and a chilling fear running up my spine!
I ask myself – Where is fear? Isn’t it in the absence of God!
I could feel Him holding my hand and with me as I was going through these chilling experiences! He was like the Mother intent on giving the required vaccine shots to the child at the right time and the right place for its own betterment and protection! Like it or not,No escape from the pain!

He is with us when we go through the toughest of times but there seems to be no flight that can take us off from the loneliness, pain and fear!

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